It's All Good

So 8 months ago, I wrote a post that said I was closing the book on the strange chapter of my life. I actually just turned the page. The chapter is still going on, though I'm just working on the footnotes now. I'm wrestling with the knowledge that I'm not the person I thought I was. I'm much more complicated, more high maintenance and more capable. And that's ok.

I'm a girl who has struggled with my weight and my emotional connection to food since I was 4 years old. And that is ok.

I have gained and lost pound after pound. Started exercising and stopped. Joined Weight Watchers and quit several times. And that is ok.

I am a woman who wants to be liked by everyone, and who is really detested by a few. And that's ok.

I'm a person who takes on too many projects because I like to be busy; I like to be involved. And down deep I think I like to feel important.

I'm overly critical of myself and most of the people around me. I struggle to feel compassionate toward myself, and I really seldom cut the people around me slack. And that's NOT ok.

This journey I am taking is hopefully going to teach me to patient, compassionate, and understanding toward myself and the people in my life. Whether it's health, weight, habits, deeds or disposition, I will strive to look beyond what's obvious, and dig deep to find the real motivation of actions. I will try to understand the whys of the action and not focus on what I expect to be.

And by doing that, it will be ok.